(The above picture is what I looked like exactly 4 years ago)
It’s official, I cannot hide behind sweatpants and long sweaters anymore! With the summer quickly approaching, I have decided to ditch the donuts and commit myself to a 4 month program with Nutrisystem.
I have tried everything to drop a few pounds. For about 8 months, I used nursing as my primary form of weight control, which didn’t really work. Then I decided that walking and Zumba would shred the pounds, but that didn’t help either. Could it be the eating of leftover mac & cheese, the crust from a melted grilled cheese, leftover cake, the french fries left at the bottom of the bag or all the other foods that I couldn’t help throw away from my kids plates. Yes, that could be the major problem! But,I just can’t help myself. I am not sure that I can blame it on being thrifty that I didn’t want to waste food; however, I have been using food a crutch surviving sleepless nights, the terrible two’s that seem to have started a year early and haven’t stopped, and growing pains of a 5 year old who wants to conquer the world.
Let’s rewind a little to tell you the roller coaster that my body has been on during the last 5 years. After having Lucas in the fall of 2006, I quickly bounced back to my old figure. At 26, I was loving the life of motherhood and still fitting into my old clothes. After suffering a miscarriage in the fall of 2008, I never lost the weight before getting pregnant again 2 months later. I always say that I was plus 10 when I got pregnant with Mollie and never looked back (literally, I did not want to look at my back). After having Mollie, I was looking for a quick fix and ordered a 30 min Jillian Michaels video. It just wasn’t getting me into shape, but I did lose a few pounds before finding out that I was pregnant with my third, Jaxon. When I got pregnant I was plus 17 and now 30, which means that my metabolism had slowed down a little. As I reflect upon the past 5 years, 3 were spent either pregnant or nursing with my diet a little restricted, and now it’s time to get back to being me and getting a little bit of Jenna back. Besides the fact that I can’t fit into any cloths and live in my sweats (or pi’s), I refuse to feel uncomfortable in my own body and also refuse to buy all new clothes.
It’s time for me to face the music and do something about weight, but exercise alone is doing any good and trying to diet on my own is also not working. I am excited and a little nervous to start Nutrisystem. I am nervous that I won’t be able to eat out or celebrate birthdays with small dessert (I know that I shouldn’t be thinking like that, but it’s the truth). I am not sure what to expect, but I do know that it can’t be worse than feeling bloated and embarrassed when having to wear normal clothes. My goal is get drop a few pounds, but also to feel better about myself. Now at 32 and a mother of 3 children five and under, I realize that this is a huge challenge but I am hoping that this may inspire some of you to take control of your life if you are feeling the same way and maybe we can inspire each other to stick to the plan.
I will be updating on the blog weekly (but I am sure you can read complaints daily on Facebook and twitter..hah)
Disclaimer: Nutrisystem is sending me 4 months of products in return to share my experience. All opinions are 100% mine and are not altered in any way.